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A Choir Sings Outside My Window

by Ryan Malloree

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Aethearius
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Aethearius I love the soft, almost whispering, song - making it extra intimate with an already lonely voice and acoustic guitar. Many of the chord progressions are very interesting and as often so the modal/key changes (not to mention the spot-on lyrics), but they succeed in more than only taking your attention; giving this melancholic style an extra punch - like a blue blanket of comfortable woe which really hits home.

Great stuff! Favorite track: 2227, Chimera, Sick Dream.
katerwauled
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katerwauled every hopeless feeling gets reincarnated with each verse in this album. chord progressions now have new meanings, i hope to hear more in the future. the verse "thought about the days I never said a word - and if it overwhelms me then it probably wouldn't hurt" Gnaws at my knuckles Favorite track: Hi, Ry.
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1.
How this room has held So much noise As the nights spill over and begin again Permanence becomes washing hands and touching dust I see what I want to see Reveling, hanging from the ceiling The memory just wanders and is sewn anew To walk along the water with a distorted view He walks over Silent as a moth Just keep your distance from me now (x2) A pain in my side And it seems to grow and wane My head in the fire And I don't know what I wanna see And I waste my time Caught in overgrowth Spitting angry sighs Did I give you just another piece to criticize Who gives a fuck if I try
2.
4 am 06:52
As the loop enlaces Subtleties are stripped away Have I just imagined That you seem to look my way Do you see me Green is where I want to be (x2) Three days, three days of a single night Three days, three days of another life Three days, three days I'm encased in wire The engines scream It cuts a hole in my head The taste is sick I feel unease on my tongue Won't ever slip Into the floors A restlessness inside Look towards the spires And lettered streets You come mend my hands As I burst the seams And it's in the bones And it wants to hide But you bring me out from deep inside You bring me out from deep inside Underneath a single light (x2) Now the streetlamp becomes the moon to me I'm falling back again I can eat this but nothing changes I'm falling back again Once a fervor It's now an impediment Your likeness lingers on my pillowcase And I could say that it's better than it's ever been I know you think that I don't think of you But you can trust that I do Watching the porchlights in the dark Climb to the rooftop I smile at you You laugh, you laugh (x2) If you and I burned a hole into the sky If you and I could have felt each other's fire But you weren't there I just never fell asleep You were never there Just too long I've been awake
3.
I’m standing in a breeze above your grave The obituary read that you found solace in your faith A bullet in the chest I’ve dreamt the same Betrayed by an unfamiliar state The point is to not be confused To radically accept a passing phase Is how I’ve come to know my age Now I’ve come to know my age (x2) Where we wrote our names last April is all frozen over There’s a flutist in the distance playing songs I can’t recall Drag my feet across the rocks and now they’re cold and dripping I can feel it I can see it and it’s all I focus on Now I’m older I’ve been reaching for a stronger purpose But maybe it’s just a misconception and it drags me in again But I am confident and walking and no longer freezing I am confident I’m walking and I’m barely cold I am older I am walking and no longer freezing In this house It speaks It sings In this house A sober sight A parasite The bones are sunken in the face Solace turns to emptiness My shadow paints a scene I can’t erase The light from the candle on the floor next to my bed A choir sings in the parking lot outside my window The door is locked now And I am scared but I have to go to bed
4.
(instrumental)
5.
Hi, Ry 06:56
In my garden I will bury your name Veins unfurling is a scene I can’t shake Now I’m mad and I don’t know why I don’t know why I’m devastated In a pinch it obliterates me Now and then I will watch the crows I taste the shroud of smoke And I can’t dwell on what can’t be changed It costs too much to leave In the lightning storm I walked across the city to the docks And thought about the days I never said a word And as I start to sing I feel a tension in my chest And if it overtakes me then it probably wouldn’t hurt And if it overwhelms me then it probably wouldn’t hurt A cradle rocks and bends and breaks it only takes a couple days to pass I can’t see it manifesting all I have are memories of a mess Maybe as you’ve said before Change won’t scare me anymore The sky has turned I turn my head away As spring descends In timelessness Your will is spent When there’s blood on my fingertips I just wanted this for myself When you’re carving your name on my lips I just wanted this for myself When I’m living outside of my skin I just wanted this for myself Be still your thoughts will fade Your voice just falls away Entombed and locked away
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I’m bracing It drags me ‘Cause I’m not a rock and I never was My plants won’t stop dying They don’t see the sunlight anymore I took my jacket off And felt the breeze I was in my body then The cold felt nice that day And you say It’s childlike What the fuck do you know about me Confusion is consistent Living lives that I’ll never live And this uncertainty I still adorn But it is evident Change is always there (x3) Tides will ease again Find the breeze again Time will ease again

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Inspired by the recurring cycle of descent, feeling lost, and coming out the other side.

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released December 21, 2021

All music, lyrics, performance, recording, mixing, and mastering written/done by Ryan Malloree

Special thanks to my family and friends for always supporting my musical endeavors

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Ryan Malloree Bellingham, Washington

Singer-songwriter from Bellingham, WA. Voted #1 sad-sack of the Pacific Northwest 5 years running.

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